Anyone who’s had the misfortune of seeing me in a full-blown depressed state (actually surprisingly few people, considering) knows how Jekyll and Hyde I can be. The level-headed – hell, even happy – Jenni is logical, smiley, and just generally mild-tempered and behaves vaguely logically.
When I’m depressed or anxious, all that goes out of the window. It’s all black and white thinking, general ‘I don’t want to do anything because it’s all a waste of time’, etc. I’m basically two different people, and as difficult as that is for anyone else to
understand process, at least they can walk away from it. I can’t.
So one of my coping mechanisms is to have a messaging system from Normal(ish) Jenni to Psycho Jenni in the hope that it will make things a little easier.