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The illusion of serenity

“The truth is only a version,” Doris Canary says in Mister Sandman (and it’s even more significant that this sounds like “The truth is only aversion” to eldest daughter Sonja).

Just like anything else, there is no one truth in photography. Even though photos are often interpreted as being closer to reality than most other mediums, as with anything else they depict the story the photographer chooses to tell.

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Recently, in photos

For a while now I’ve been doing the Pretend Everything Is Fine routine.1

I’ve started a couple of posts I’m not really that happy with, so until those have been rewritten, here’re some pictures…

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  1. Mostly unsuccessfully…

Pot luck

Anyone who’s had the misfortune of seeing me in a full-blown depressed state (actually surprisingly few people, considering) knows how Jekyll and Hyde I can be. The level-headed – hell, even happy – Jenni is logical, smiley, and just generally mild-tempered and behaves vaguely logically.

When I’m depressed or anxious, all that goes out of the window. It’s all black and white thinking, general ‘I don’t want to do anything because it’s all a waste of time’, etc. I’m basically two different people, and as difficult as that is for anyone else to understand process, at least they can walk away from it. I can’t.

So one of my coping mechanisms is to have a messaging system from Normal(ish) Jenni to Psycho Jenni in the hope that it will make things a little easier.

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