I’ve been feeling pretty low-to-meh recently. There’s still a lot to be grateful for, and I still love everything about being self-employed, but the problem with demons is that they follow you around relentlessly. No matter how hard you try to repress them, they still lurk. Sometimes it’s like carrying around a death sentence.

This year I’ve been able to enjoy the good weather a lot more. I’m already my normal summer colour, instead of walking round with super pale legs (my legs are always far slower to go brown). I’m grateful that I can plan my time around the sunshine, even if it’s just sitting in the garden with a cold drink, my laptop, and various cats.

I’ve been relaxing more. I don’t even think twice about taking a long lunch in town and doing some shopping, or having a nap. Being able to do everything on Jenni time means that when I am feeling low, it’s nowhere near as bad. I can shake it off after a few hours rather than a few weeks.

Last weekend was blissfully quiet, because of the joy that is a holiday in both the US and UK. It gave me a lot of time for resting and planning, because we’re working on getting some new products and services out over the summer. We’re starting with something easy and straightforward, since as much as I want to write books, I really need to look into the whole digital tax reforms a lot more and figure out how I blanket charge VAT/other taxes in a way that makes sense globally.

At the moment I’m obsessed with photography, and very much enjoying the fact that my props and equipment are now business expenses. It’s also nice to step away from the internet, put some music on, and spend a few hours in the spare room just working on photos.

I’ve also spent some lovely time with friends, and I’ve walked at least 10,000 steps every day so far this year. We’ve also ordered lots of healthy food to try and get my mood up that way, so I’m going to be making lots of salads and trying to cobble together more of a routine, especially over the quieter summer months, instead of reacting to everything and fitting work around it.

I haven’t been blogging here much purely because I’m not a massive fan of this theme. It’s pretty but I’ve learned I hate Genesis, and despite it being a paid theme it wasn’t fit for purpose out of the box (and still needs a lot of tweaks to work well enough). This just can’t be a priority at the moment, which is why it’s a bit in limbo. One of my dreams was always to have more time to sort this website out, and we have a long list of sites we’re updating/fixing/deciding what to do with, so it’s just a case of getting round to it.

How’s your May been?