Thanks for the feedback guys, I’ve decided to go to the audition. I have a hair appointment booked for the 29th, and hopefully my hair will still look good the next day, since I have to be there for 9 am. I’m still not 100% about this, but people have been guilt tripping me that someone else could have had the chance to go, and your comments about changing my mind anyway made sense. Plus, only 5 people out of the 60-80 there will be chosen, so there is practically no chance I’ll get picked anyway.

I’ve lost a good 6 pounds since I put my weight down when I applied for the show, so I might have to alter that, I don’t know. So far I’m 11 pounds down, which is so close to being a stone already, I’m really happy. 

I went on the quest for the perfect top today, and ended up buying a (gorgeous) dress. So I’m still at square one  in terms of what to wear. I don’t want to wear a black top because my hair’s really dark and won’t show up as well, but I have a great black top (stolen from my sister) that would work well with the jeans and boots I’m planning on wearing. If it were a bit later in the year I could wear the brown jumper (in the right hand pic at the top of the brown theme) that I get complimented on every time I wear, but it’s way too hot. I’m also worried about wearing the same thing as someone else, not standing out enough, standing out too much…argh! I don’t want to look too dressed up, but I also don’t want to look like I’ve just got out of bed. I’ll have to go through my clothes again and decide. I would be tempted to wear my new dress, but the only shoes I have that would go with it for this are black knee-high ones which are in Notts *sigh* I am planning to take the dress on holiday though, and dress it down with silver flip flops. So basically, pointy black boots and greyish tightish jeans with my newish denim FCUK bag are as far as I’ve got. Maybe a plain strappy top with silver jewellery, I don’t know. At least I’ve found something new to obsess about lol. I have no idea what else to take either, I might take my photos from the June photoshoot, something to read, makeup remover wipes, a clip, and some food/drink. They said it’s going to be kind of coffee-morning style in part, with cakes etc. – none of which I can eat on my detox. I’ll be there with carrot sticks and water lol. I had Thai Green Curry and rice last night when we went out for a meal, and my stomach was in knots (I think it was the white rice, they didnt have any brown)…I’m kind of limited in the processed foods I can eat these days which don’t kill me. Anything with a lot of added/unnatural sugar is a big no-no if I don’t want to spend a good few hours in complete agony. I guess it’s my body rejecting things that are bad for me in large quantities; it’s kind of like a completely natural, free and almost risk-free stomach stapling, with added nutritional benefits! Any more than one glass of concentrated fruit juice just about kills me.

My parents gave Pom the bone from the lamb. He gets very possessive about his bones – even though he loves my dad more than anyone in the world, if my dad steps too close to Pom and his bone, he gets growled at. A fly dared to land on Pom’s bone, and was instantly snapped to death. Anyway, after Pom had finished with his bone, he ran round the garden trying to find somewhere to bury it. But the ground was too hard, so my dad and Pom ended up burying the bone together, my dad using his spade and Pom helping with his paws. Very cute lol. I was quite surprised, because normally Pom doesn’t like you to watch while he buries something (particularly when it’s a soft toy he’s taken from somewhere).

I’m going to have a laze in the bath after my busy day shopping (!), and I will return last entry’s comments very very soon.